For all the braying and bleating I normally do about being positive and being in control of your life, I've been a little challenged in the last few weeks. I have to admit that I've been reduced to tears on more than a number of occasions and felt terribly inadequate, lost and insecure and had doubts about everything I had established internally.
I don't need to go into detail - they're not as important as me having to recalibrate my internal monitor. During those overwhelming moments, I lost track a little and focussed on the things that were derailing me. I lost faith in myself and became momentarily disillusioned about my own strength, my resilience and my courage.......my ability to face those challenges instead of running away from them.
However, time and focus has brought me back to the middle and those things that seemed insurmountable are now a little more manageable and, one small bite at a time, I'll have this apple eaten.
I guess it proves that life's road always has speed humps and it's how you handle those bumps that determine how the rest of your journey is going to be.
I thought that once you had a handle on life and the Universe, none of those things would resurface to challenge you again - more fool me! They do come back.....if for nothing else than to test you out, to make sure you've progressed and evolved enough to cope.
It's a good feeling of peace you get when the penny drops again.........
